The Energy Way

 The Inner Crucifixion

People don’t die, they just go, and all the things that we respect, admire, love and enjoy about them stay.

People manifest certain beauties and qualities, but those beauties and qualities are always present. There may be an inspiration in your mind to obtain the same qualities, but more important than this, is that you continue to look for those qualities that you can acquire for yourself. Somewhere inside we know this, but the problem is that we become very attached to the characteristics that have become known as oneself; and that leads to a kind of crucifixion.

The Cross symbolises a combination of the horizontal and the vertical. The horizontal is the day-by-day life which continues just as it has been, and will continue more or less as it has been, through the time you are here on earth. The vertical represents the possibility of escaping from that trap and finding transcendence and transformation.

It came very strongly to me just now, when I was working with Josha’s migraine, that I was very much in a cross of energy in his system. There is a cross in all people, so therefore there is always suffering.

In the last Enlightenment Circle in Belgium, that some of you attended, I asked ”What are the most important properties for someone who wants to escape from the trap of themselves?”. With some wise responses from those present, we arrived at the following two qualities: receptivity and resonance.

To get from the horizontal to the vertical is very difficult. Every step that is taken, even in an attempt to move vertically, comes from the characteristics that are dominating on the horizontal level.

This subtle mechanism that wants everything to be taken into the self-development of the ego needs some intelligence to escape from. You have to outwit your own cleverness.

So, if we stop looking to the mind to inform us how to go on and achieve a feeling of fulfilment, then we have to look somewhere else. Of course, we can look to the heart as many people do in certain situations. This can be successful, but usually this only happens in isolated situations. We don’t live in a society where we let the heart guide us, we live in a mind and body society. So some of these sudden openings and freeing responses that can come from the heart happen just now and again.

Now going back to what I began to say this morning, when we mourn beautiful and great people, the qualities we loved or respected are still here. They just connected with, and manifested those qualities, but when they left they didn’t take these with them, because they were always here. These ways of being can be discovered and assimilated. We have to find a way to connect with them, and then we can also live those qualities ourselves.

These qualities are all around us and are always accessible. But of course you can’t grasp, own or posses them. These would be horizontal actions. The way to awaken them in yourself is to resonate with them. Where they are, is impersonal, it is just a certain vibration, a certain level of being. If you can find a way to resonate with them, then naturally what they represent can become a personal reality in yourself.

To find your way to that resonance you have to be always receptive. As long as you’re thinking, planning and analysing, you can’t possibly be receptive to them. You are just playing around with what is already in your mind.

You have to turn away from the mind and send out your feelers into open space. If you do that, then certain things will touch you and be attracted by you, and those things will change the level upon which you operate.

So, I want to make these days of this particular leg of the X-Run a kind of no-mind operation. You might be in and out of wondering why are we doing this, or why we are not doing that, or what do I mean by this and what is my response to it. That would normally happen with many of you, but ignore all that and just see if you can tune into the different levels of energy that are made available here in this room. Allow yourselves to be open to them, touched by them and resonant with them, without the mind coming in at all.

Talk, X-Run Part II, 14th December 2006